In the last month and a half, I’ve logged into this account several times and stared blankly at the screen, wondering what to write. Did I want to discuss research? Nah, don’t want to identify myself so easily. Had I developed enough as a grad student to be able to start spouting meaningful wisdom? Pfft. That’s cute. Anyways, I give up. The following are five challenges that I’ve been facing as a still relatively new grad student. Whether every grad student faces these challenges, I wouldn’t know, but without further ado, I present to you:
Five Non-Academic Challenges that I’ve had to Face as a Grad Student So Far, the List
- Eating well. Somewhere into approximately week 3 or 4, my worries from the last post manifested themselves into reality. Apparently, humans aren’t meant to shovel restaurant catered crap into their bodies for several weeks straight. Who woulda thunk? Anyways, I observed a noticeable drop in my brain functioning power as time went by. I gained two pounds, which isn’t a lot, except when you realize it happened in three weeks, and that I’m short enough such that it’s noticeable. And despite the weight gain, I was feeling constantly hungry and lethargic.
I ended up eventually hauling my ass to Trader Joe’s one weekend and dropping a good fraction of my weekly budget on some obnoxiously expensive vegetables/fruit/protein. Cooking requires willpower, time, and energy, which is difficult when you’re trying to break that vicious cycle of work/stress/bad eating. I’m not even close to being completely healthy yet, but hey, baby steps. I actually eat breakfast now, force myself to eat fruit every day, and cook half my other meals. I’ve considered switching to keto (although I’m not sure I want to give up my newfound fruit). It’s a painful, ongoing process, and I’m making mistakes left and right, but I’m sure it’ll be worth it in the end. And while I haven’t lost those two new pounds yet, at least I haven’t been gaining more. - Sleeping well. Left to my own devices, I’m pretty sure my internal clock is somewhere between 25 and 26 hours. A bit problematic, but I’m a human living in a 24hrs/day world, right? Unfortunately, my brain simply doesn’t want to go to bed 8 hours before it’s supposed to wake up the next day, and I end up sleep-deprived and cranky. Ugh. Still not sure how to fix this one.
- Managing time. Every week after my advisor meeting, I’m convinced that I’ll be able to complete all essential tasks in 3-4 days and bust out amazing novel research the remaining few days. And every night before my meeting, I’m still coding away frantically on old problems. Some of this can be attributed to the fact that research is challenging, to be sure, but I’m sure the hours I while away browsing Reddit/playing stupid Flash games/watching Youtube videos of hamsters squeaking doesn’t help. Heh. A friend told me about the Pomodoro technique just a few hours ago; thinking of trying it out.
- Exercising well. With all that time I’m wasting every day, surely I have enough spare bandwidth to work out at the gym for half an hour a few times a week, right? Unfortunately, I have problems getting past the psychological overhead of changing into gym clothes/showering afterwards/etc. So, I’ve given up. I don’t try to go to the gym any more – I bike to the grocery store, take walks, etc. Pondering what athletic activity to pick up – dance, perhaps?
- Learning how to relax. Despite my time-wasting tendencies, I still feel some guilt about watching a movie with friends or taking a night off. Counterintuitive, right? Just these past two weeks, I realized that not working at all the afternoon/night after my advisor meeting and simply staying in my room catching up on funny TV shows recharged me and made me more motivated to continue working the next day.
Don’t get me wrong – there’s a lot I love about life as a grad student, and research is so much fun. On the other hand, I can no longer even pretend not to be a “real adult” any more, and whether I decide to remain in grad school or not, there’s always room for self-improvement, right? And that’s what I’ve been focusing on in the last few weeks.
Ciao!